In a land of make-believe, that don't believe in me...

that meme thing

2007-11-21T19:37:32Z

1. The age you will be on your next birthday:

2. A place to which you'd like to travel:

3. Your favorite place:

4. your favorite object:

5. your favorite food:

6. your favorite animal:

7. your favorite color:

8. the town in which you were born:

9. the town in which you live:

10. first name of a past current love:

11. name of a past pet:

12. best friends nickname:

13. your nickname/screen name:

14. your first name:

15. your middle name:

16. your surname:

17. a bad habit of yours:

18. your first job:

19. your grandmothers name:

20. your major in college:

Santa came! Santa came!

2006-12-27T14:47:12Z

I have to say that I made out fairly well this year!

(in no order whatsoever)
1. fingerprint scanner for lappy
2. vibrating chair for my bed in the dorm
3. extra fuzzy blankie
4. Wii IOU
5. clothes, clothes, clothes [including a blazer and velvet skirt]
6. [patriotic...] COWBOY HAT!
7. toaster oven/egg maker/tea boiler thing for the dorm
8. awesome crystal candle air ionizer thing [salt!!!]
9. Felician sweatpants/sweatshirt
10. Lime green winter coat w/ matching leather gloves
11. subscription to Cosmo for a year

plus a few more things that i cant remember now, and fun stocking stuff!

i hope Santa was good to all of you!

i need opinions

2006-11-20T20:39:03Z

Ok i know this is insanely early, but i have always wanted to go to the AnimeNEXT convention, and i finally want to go this coming July. now in order to go i need an actually good costume, so i need ideas now so i have plenty of time to make it so i can actually go in a costume that i dont think looks like shit.

Ideas for characters:
These have already been suggested, but please add more!
Any character that you think i could pull off well

Malon [again]
Jean Grey
Arwen
Naru [Love Hina]
Kairi [Kingdom Hearts]

Please leave an opinion guys!

and if anyone wants to come {Alex this means you!!!)

Snatchies from Jeremy

2006-09-18T15:33:33Z

Decided to do the Jeremy music quiz thing.

Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?:
Its a Small World After All- Techno Mix
(er.. that seems like an insult)

Will I have a happy life?:
Sit on my Face- Monty Python
(er..lots of sex?)

What do people really think of me?:
Kiss the Girl- Techno Mix
(im a whore? this is not going so well)

Do people secretly lust after me?:
Better Off Alone- Alice DeeJay
(apparently they do not.)

How can I make myself happy?
Gods of Ice- Dragoforce
(join a heavy metal band? but i am seeing them soon..)

What should I do with my life?
Storms Over Africa- Enya
(i honestly have no idea)

Will I ever have children?
Tears To Shed- Corpse Bride
(fuck! what a depressing song)

What is some good advice for me?:
Tonight is the Night- LeBouche
(upbeat positive song, i need to have fun?)

What do I think my current theme song is?:
House at Pooh Corner- Kenny Loggins
(my favorite song when i was little, of course now it makes me cry)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
My Spirit Will Go On- dragonforce
(decent choice)

What song will play at my funeral?:
Torn- Creed
(wow. apparently my life was miserable)

What type of women do you like?
Castles in the Sky- i dont remember
(apparently i like girls that can dance and let loose. this is true)

What is my day going to be like?
Antologia- Shakira
(kinda blah, just relaxing. which is true cause im sick)

Why am I here?
Ohio is for Loves- Hawthorne Heights
(apparnetly im here to be emo/depressed/cut myself)

What will people remember me for?
Whenver, Wherever- Shakira
(for loving somone far away?)

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
Last Resort- Papa Roach
(is possible, its currently on my mp3 player)

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
I Love My Sex- Benny Benassi
(im not even going there)

What will this year be all about?
Water Voices- Enya
(relaxing myself. i can only hope)

From this i learned a lot of things i dont like. but on the bright side i have a very varied tate in music. Kenny Loggins to Dragonforce, Creed to Enya. this is good.

i encourage everyone to do this. its very interesting..

college central

2006-09-05T14:50:29Z

wow, a lot of college related stuff has happened in the last week. Moved in on August 31st and I just got back from my first class. I really didn't know my roommate well enough to make a judgement on her, and when i came back Saturday night from a night at home she was gone. All her stuff was moved out and i guess she is no more. So as of now i have a room to myself, though if i dont get a roommate assigned, Liz will move in for the spring semester in january.

so. call me. im still close by, i can still do things. I miss everyone a lot, but hopefully once i get my stupid college e-mail address i can keep in touch with the gang via Facebook.

I guess college doesnt suck too much...

angelmenot810 @ 2006-07-29T11:25:00

2006-07-29T15:27:31Z

Well then, I dont use this thing much anyways, but figured I would post this anyways.

As of Sunday morning, I will be leaving for Delaware for 2 weeks. I should get back sometime on the 13th of August, so once again I will be gone for my birthday.

Then I'll be home for a week, and im leaving the morning of the 20th to go to Virginia for a week. Then I'm home 3 days and I leave for college. yay for summer.

call the cell, i should have service. Have a great summer!

yay for emotions!

2006-07-08T14:46:56Z

Lately it seems as though i am a permanent passenger on an emotional train ride to hell. No matter what seems to be going on in my life, my emotions are the one thing i know is guaranteedto be screwed up in some way. I guess its a bit easier now that i'm accepting the fact that they're screwy but in an odd way its not.

I guess its just the fact that its so frustrating, you know? never being able to know what you are actually feeling, no less explain it to anyone when they ask whats wrong. so for the few of you out there who have asked me that recently, i'm sorry that i probably couldn't convey anything a tad bit close to what i meant, but i guess there is naught to be done about that.

so for now i continue on my personal quest of figuring myself out, and managing to take control of my life and who i am.
which is an awfully big quest if you think about it.

The Most Bizzare Suicide.

2006-07-06T14:12:58Z

I found this oddly ironic, and disturbingly entertaining...

At the 1994 annual awards dinner given by the American Association for Forensic Science, AAFS President Don Harper Mills astounded his audience in San Diego with the legal complications of a bizarre death. Here is the story.

On 23 March 1994, the medical examiner viewed the body of Ronald Opus and concluded that he died from a shotgun wound of the head. The decedent had jumped from the top of a ten-story building intending to commit suicide (he left a note indicating his despondency). As he fell past the ninth floor, his life was interrupted by a shotgun blast through a window, which killed him instantly. Neither the shooter nor the decedent was aware that a safety net had been erected at the eighth floor level to protect some window washers and that Opus would not have been able to complete his suicide anyway because of this.

Ordinarily, a person who sets out to commit suicide ultimately succeeds, even though the mechanism might not be what he intended.

That Opus was shot on the way to certain death nine stories below probably would not have changed his mode of death from suicide to homicide. But the fact that his suicidal intent would not have been successful caused the medical examiner to feel that he had homicide on his hands.

The room on the ninth floor whence the shotgun blast emanated was occupied by an elderly man and his wife. They were arguing and he was threatening her with the shotgun. He was so upset that, when he pulled the trigger, he completely missed his wife and the pellets went through the window striking Opus.

When one intends to kill subject A but kills subject B in the attempt, one is guilty of the murder of subject B. When confronted with this charge, the old man and his wife were both adamant that neither knew that the shotgun was loaded. The old man said it was his long-standing habit to threaten his wife with the unloaded shotgun. He had no intention to murder her; therefore, the killing of Opus appeared to be an accident. That is, the gun had been accidentally loaded.

The continuing investigation turned up a witness who saw the old couple's son loading the shotgun approximately six weeks prior to the fatal incident. It transpired that the old lady had cut off her son's financial support and the son, knowing the propensity of his father to use the shotgun threateningly, loaded the gun with the expectation that his father would shoot his mother.

The case now becomes one of murder on the part of the son for the death of Ronald Opus.

There was an exquisite twist.

Further investigation revealed that the son [Ronald Opus] had become increasingly despondent over the failure of his attempt to engineer his mother's murder. This led him to jump off the ten-story building on March 23, only to be killed by a shotgun blast through a ninth story window.

The medical examiner closed the case as a suicide.

A new addition to the family

2006-05-08T01:34:49Z

So over the weekend my sister and her bf drove up to CT and came back with a new Chocolate Lab puppy. The adorable little puppy still has yet to be named, but that should be coming soon. Here's a few pictures of our handsome boy.

angelmenot810 @ 2006-05-06T19:14:00

2006-05-06T23:16:48Z

Are Neen and I the only ones that see a resemblance?

angelmenot810 @ 2006-04-15T09:31:00

2006-04-15T13:37:45Z

well then, i never update this thing. I guess i just dont feel the need to mark down daily occurances online, but yet again lately i havent seemed to mark down anything at all. i guess it is sort of the feeling that if you expierenced something great, than the people you were with know about it, and thats all you really need.

This late after my last entry, it would be pointless to update people on anything. otherwise it would sound like this: "well i had some really good days, and this day sucked a lot, and i got pissed at so-and-so, this teacher is such an asshole, i cant believe she did that!, i absoultly love this teacher, today was really bad." or something to that extent. so i guess i like talking to people actually in person or on the phone more than internet. that way you can actually tell what the person is feeling, and get a real response, not some timed thing that they thought over to make sure it came out correctly. so. talk to me. i do listen.

decided to retake test, like Debbie

2006-01-21T14:53:45Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	High
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

at least im not narcissistic...

inspired from jays rant

2006-01-10T01:16:05Z

thank you jeremy for bringing this too light, and i realized i have seen a lot of stupid people carrying arond "Teen Witch". so i decided to do a little research on it. What i found is disgusting and insulting to actual witches.
Most of you probably dont know but i dabble in a sorts of wiccan/pagan worship a few years back, but [unfortunatly i think] really did not get into it. but still, like any other type of worship Wiccan is rich with history and symbology, both of which are IMPORTANT, it is not "I need to make this boi like totally love me" or "i need school to be snowed out becuase im too stupid to finish my paper" so let me do a spell to make it happen. no. just no.

Synopsis of the book clearly says "doesn't get bogged down in history, dogma, or gender roles" WhAt?! what is wiccan without history? IT DOESNT EXIST WITHOUT ITS HISTORY WHORES!!! Thankfully one reviewer actually seemed to have a brain and an IQ above 100 and said "The tone is EXTREMELY condescending. After reading the book, I honestly felt as if I could never be a real Wiccan unless I purchased all her books and completed all her exercises. And I'm not sure where she found her "historical" information, but it's inaccurate AT BEST." as well as "I think I learned more about Silver (author of "To Ride a Silver Broomstick" is Silver Ravenwolf) than I did about Witchcraft. (Or should I say Wicca? Apparently, they're interchangeable. She prefers Witchcraft because the word Wicca reminds her of wicker furniture.) There is no such thing as objectivity in $ilver's plane of existence" the word Wicca reminds her of wicker furniture? Am i the only one that sees something horribly wrong with that?

and i just managed to find a few more reviewers who said to "not waste your time on this piece of crap" that it is "loaded with bigotry and just bashes Christian religons, instead of being accepting and peaceful which is what Wiccan is founded on" as well as "the history was incorrect and it just loaded with typical "witchcraft" sterotypes. This book is a disgrace to the Wiccan faith". Well then. I must say from what i have read from the book online, i have to agree that it is a disgrace. Another further thing to add to my list of what in today's society DISGUSTS ME! This woman, and the people who read this book, are mocking a type of belief and disgracing its history. In conclusions, THIS BOOK IS DISGRACEFUL, INCORRECT, AND JUST PLAIN RETARTED!!!

Dear Santa,

2005-12-24T02:27:18Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In July I signed my organ donor card (28 points). In October I committed genocide... Sorry about that, jay_kun17 (-5000 points). Last Sunday I donated bone marrow to nxdgirl16 in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last Monday I pulled over and changed shona's flat tire (15 points). In April I didn't flush (-1 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-4658 points). For Christmas I deserve a moldy sandwich!

Sincerely,
angelmenot810

HAH! take that jeremy!! you meanie head..

in other news, ive been pretty good. just exchanged presents with my boyfriend, the most awesome person in the entire world; you should be jealous. he got me this LED necklace that changes colors and is attached by magnets and it just utterly amazing. i was seriously staring it at it for a while. its so entertaining. I love you andy.

Merry Christmahanukahkwanzaadan! (yeah i know i misspelled that)

angelmenot810 @ 2005-12-18T13:30:00

2005-12-18T18:31:13Z

figured i would retake it..

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category	Your Score	Average
Self-Lovin'	46.7% When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself	65%
Shamelessness	57.1% It takes a couple of drinks	79.1%
Sex Drive	60.5% A fool for love, but not always	77.5%
Straightness	10.7% Knows the other body type like a map	44.2%
Gayness	85.7% Repressed, are we?	83.8%
Fucking Sick	76.1% Refreshingly normal	90%
You are 56.01% pure Average Score: 72.6%
Take The Ultimate Purity Test and see how you match up!

angelmenot810 @ 2005-11-12T09:30:00

2005-11-12T14:35:30Z

well getting your wisdom teeth out really really sucks.
yucky details inside:

first pardon grammer ad spelling im hopped up on pain pills. anesthesia makes you want to die. i felt cold and nauseous and not fun at all. i was pretty good up until yesterday when i had too much pain medication without enough food and ended up throwing up a few times. stomach acid and open wounds is not fun at all. so im diog a bit bette today though im still dizzy and my face is so swollen i look like a chipmunk. i seriosuly look like i weigh 5 million pounds just in my face.
well im off to lay down and put more ice on, feel free to call the house phone since i odnt have my cell with me. *hugs* to all of you

ana

2005-11-08T23:38:16Z

copied from 1_danceissues written by sk8sister

Oh Ana, how it's been a while.. Too long, hasn't it? I was stupid to let them take you away. I was dumb and misled. I was a coward, I let them. I know, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Now, I want you back. I'm coming back to you, begging on my knees. My fat, gross knees. You see me now, and you laugh at me. I know.....look at me now, Ana. Look at what they've let me become. I know you were once proud. I remember when I made you happy. It can be like that again, I want it again.
You always gave me attention, Ana. They were all jealous. They wanted my attention when you were the dominant one in my life. Now that I've let you go, so have they. They don't care anymore about me, they don't take second glances anymore. They did when you were here, though. I don't care about them. I only care about you, Ana. Just you and I. We can have that again, we can rule again.
I want to devote my life to you once again, but you need to help me, take me over once again. Lead the way. Take me over. Let me learn to love, then eventually forget the feeling of hunger. The feeling of accomplishment. of control. of power.
I'll keep you energized with caffine and ephedrine, clean with laxatives. We'll be hungry together. You'll be proud again. You'll see the bones again.
I want you to kill me, Ana. I'm sick of the cycle. The yo-yoing, the up and downs of it all. I want this to be it. I never want us to be parted again. I want to close my eyes one day, and be forever at rest with you. That'll be the day of victory. A day of celebration. It'll be our day, Ana.
I want to write a song for you. A poem. A forever reminder, tattooed on my body. To show you, I'll never abandon you again. Please don't leave, please. I can feel you already.
Together, we WILL see. Together, we WILL achieve. Together, we'll make heads turn again, we'll make jaws drop again. Remember those times? We'll have them.
I'll run my fat off. Not your fat. My fat. You're perfect, I want to be like you, Ana. My feet will blister and bleed, my ankles will hurt, but I'll keep running.
Come back full force, please.
We'll set a goal. Not a number goal. I'm sick of numbers.

I know you are too. Numbers were never good enough for you.
But I want to proove myself. This year, this upcoming year will be our year. By January, Ana, by January. I'll be smaller. The treasure maps of veins will cover my body again. We'll see every muscle. Every bone. It'll hurt to sit down again, oh, how wonderful! I'm so excited. In 1 week, I'll be smaller, too. You'll see my potential. I did it before, I'll do it again....only, with YOU.

Ana, Please help me die. Our goal. Our goal....you'll help me. Oh how I can feel you inside me already!!! Thank you for hearing my prayer...
Help me fade away. Let me feel the hunger soon.
Let me forget what it feels like.

Let me be dead one day, Ana. Thank you. Let me find peace. Thinfully. Let me be small. smaller. Smallest. Let me be the smallest I can be. 95 pounds wasn't good enough for you. So, there is no goal. We'll find my real limits. My real boundaries. I want to see them, acknowledge them, then destroy them.

There are no boundaries.
I have no number goal.
My goal is to fade away.
My goal is to die.
My goal is to find my line.
My goal is to cross it, and never come back.

Stolen from Jeremy

2005-11-02T00:08:34Z

You can ask me 1-7 questions.
No matter how random, revealing, rude, naughty or pointless, I promise to answer them 100% truthfully. ^_^
Repost this to see what others ask you.
If you don't then you're scared of what people may ask you.

Color Quiz

2005-10-23T18:50:40Z

so i totally didnt steal this from lorenzo....

Laura took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Demands that ideas and emotions shall merge and bl..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

angelmenot810 @ 2005-10-12T20:37:00

2005-10-13T00:42:02Z

perfect stomach

perfet hips

perfect legs

Costume question

2005-10-09T01:19:09Z

ok, Halloween costumes. Andrew is going as Link

should i go as Zelda or Malon?

base on, 1) the couple you like best and 2) what you think i could pull off better

i hate the dentist

2005-09-29T22:08:12Z

well i havent been in too much of a good mood for the past three days. since tuesday afternoon ive had 2 root canals done, and if you've ever had one you know how much NOT FUN they are. so im still on antibiotics since the two were infected (bad dentist i went to for a while didnt drill cavities all the way, so moisture and stuff gets in, causing infections. we hate him.) So i have to got to school tomorrow, which will be odd since i havent ahd an icepack off my face for more than 15 minutes, i even sleep with one on. and im one consistant ibuprofen, 3 every 3 hours, more than your supposed to take but my mommy says its ok. i really want to eat steak and potatoe chips and crunchy stuffs, but im on a soft food regime for at least today and tomorrow, which makes me sad. guess i will see most of you tomorrow then....hope your weeks have been better than mine.

senior year

2005-09-15T11:27:57Z

well i must admit that it does feel odd (though nice) to be the "top dog" persay in the high school. i can smash my way through the crowds and now have to worry about black bill or chip kicking my ass for running into them. i guess i have a pretty good schedule, and the only class that really annoys me is sociology.

1. Public Speaking Mr. Sasso seems pretty fun, except for Rio being in it and being stupid.

2. Sociology Ms. Cohn seems alright, if not kinda boring

3. Gym Ms. K. its...well its gym. but with neen!

4. English Mr. bonnadona lots of fun, with alex!

5. Digital Photog Ms. McDonnel photoshop fun, new with jeremy!

6. LUNCH!!! with neen, john, dan, becca, gealex, and more!

7. Choir Cundari its choir...but my boy is in it!! <33

8. Anat/Phys Bania seems like fun, i get liz!

So classes vary between actual work and fun, and i ended up with a great lunch even though Andrew isnt in it. but at least i get to see him around school and in choir, which is a very pleasant change. For once [i think its not having the math] school doesnt seem to drag on as horribly as it used too, so i might actually be able to stand it for a month or so.

henna

2005-08-22T01:21:34Z

so i went to AC Moore with my sister today and decided to have some fun with a henna kit. i have a little vine on my ear, a flowery thing on my foot and really awesome wings my mother drew on my back. here is a [pretty shitty] picture of the wings.

i just have to wait until tomorrow for it to darken up more, ^^.

btw alex, neen, liz, and jeremy call my cell as soon as you read this, otherwise i'll call you sometime tomorrow. thanks!

The Peanuts Philosophy

2005-08-20T15:54:53Z

Charles Schulz Philosophy

The following is the philosophy of Charles Schultz, the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read the e-mail straight through, and you'll get the point.

1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winner for best actor and actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.

How did you do?

The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Acheivements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.
Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:

1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.

Easier?

The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care.
Pass this on to those people who have made a difference in your life. "Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia ." (Charles Schulz)

*In a land of make-believe, that don't believe in me...*