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(no subject) [Sep. 5th, 2010|10:08 am]
Aiseki
Wow Jer you were right, definitely don't need to read all the shitty emo entries I wrote. Though it is funny in a sense to look back and see the person you were, or thought you were, compared to the person you are now. But I believe that can also cause a little self-doubt to creep in, the thought of "could I really change this much? Or am I just ignoring it now and better at hiding/disguising/ etc".

At any rate, I begin student teaching this coming Wednesday and part of me is scared shitless and I think the only part that isn't is because I don't think about it! I'm actively trying to be a more optimistic person, and more self-confident as well but the thought of being responsible for molding little brains that need extra help can be kind of stressful. I know it's not like I'll fuck them up for life or something if I mess up, and I do get along well with kids so I think it will be fine. It's like ripping off a Band-Aid in a sense, I just need to go in on Wednesday with a smile and get the initial freakout over with quickly.

Another part in the quest for me to be more optimistic is the internet places I visit. I've been frequenting: givesmehope.com, lovegivesmehope.com, sixbillionsecrets.com, kidsgivemehope.blogher.com, itmademyday.com, and makesmethink.com. Rather than the traditional fmlife website, these are more about celebrating good things and the such. So if you're reading this, if anyone does, you should check these out.
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that meme thing [Nov. 21st, 2007|02:16 pm]
Aiseki
[mood |freudian slip]
[music |Killing in the Name Of]

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Santa came! Santa came! [Dec. 27th, 2006|10:47 am]
Aiseki
[Current Location |in my lair]
[mood |impressedjolly!]
[music |nothing!]

I have to say that I made out fairly well this year!

(in no order whatsoever)
1. fingerprint scanner for lappy
2. vibrating chair for my bed in the dorm
3. extra fuzzy blankie
4. Wii IOU
5. clothes, clothes, clothes [including a blazer and velvet skirt]
6. [patriotic...] COWBOY HAT!
7. toaster oven/egg maker/tea boiler thing for the dorm
8. awesome crystal candle air ionizer thing [salt!!!]
9. Felician sweatpants/sweatshirt
10. Lime green winter coat w/ matching leather gloves
11. subscription to Cosmo for a year

plus a few more things that i cant remember now, and fun stocking stuff!

i hope Santa was good to all of you!
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i need opinions [Nov. 20th, 2006|04:39 pm]
Aiseki
Ok i know this is insanely early, but i have always wanted to go to the AnimeNEXT convention, and i finally want to go this coming July. now in order to go i need an actually good costume, so i need ideas now so i have plenty of time to make it so i can actually go in a costume that i dont think looks like shit.

Ideas for characters:
These have already been suggested, but please add more!
Any character that you think i could pull off well


Malon [again]
Jean Grey
Arwen
Naru [Love Hina]
Kairi [Kingdom Hearts]

Please leave an opinion guys!

and if anyone wants to come {Alex this means you!!!)
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Snatchies from Jeremy [Sep. 18th, 2006|11:15 am]
Aiseki
[Current Location |my house, cause im sick]
[mood |sicksick]
[music |song bites of those listed above]

Decided to do the Jeremy music quiz thing.


Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle.
Say the following questions aloud, and press play.
Use the song titles that come up to answer each question.
NO CHEATING.

How does the world see me?:
Its a Small World After All- Techno Mix
(er.. that seems like an insult)

Will I have a happy life?:
Sit on my Face- Monty Python
(er..lots of sex?)

What do people really think of me?:
Kiss the Girl- Techno Mix
(im a whore? this is not going so well)

Do people secretly lust after me?:
Better Off Alone- Alice DeeJay
(apparently they do not.)

How can I make myself happy?
Gods of Ice- Dragoforce
(join a heavy metal band? but i am seeing them soon..)

What should I do with my life?
Storms Over Africa- Enya
(i honestly have no idea)

Will I ever have children?
Tears To Shed- Corpse Bride
(fuck! what a depressing song)

What is some good advice for me?:
Tonight is the Night- LeBouche
(upbeat positive song, i need to have fun?)

What do I think my current theme song is?:
House at Pooh Corner- Kenny Loggins
(my favorite song when i was little, of course now it makes me cry)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
My Spirit Will Go On- dragonforce
(decent choice)

What song will play at my funeral?:
Torn- Creed
(wow. apparently my life was miserable)

What type of women do you like?
Castles in the Sky- i dont remember
(apparently i like girls that can dance and let loose. this is true)

What is my day going to be like?
Antologia- Shakira
(kinda blah, just relaxing. which is true cause im sick)

Why am I here?
Ohio is for Loves- Hawthorne Heights
(apparnetly im here to be emo/depressed/cut myself)

What will people remember me for?
Whenver, Wherever- Shakira
(for loving somone far away?)

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?
Last Resort- Papa Roach
(is possible, its currently on my mp3 player)

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?
I Love My Sex- Benny Benassi
(im not even going there)

What will this year be all about?
Water Voices- Enya
(relaxing myself. i can only hope)

From this i learned a lot of things i dont like. but on the bright side i have a very varied tate in music. Kenny Loggins to Dragonforce, Creed to Enya. this is good.

i encourage everyone to do this. its very interesting..
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college central [Sep. 5th, 2006|10:46 am]
Aiseki
[Current Location |my dorm]
[mood |relievedrelieved]
[music |Nelly!!!]

wow, a lot of college related stuff has happened in the last week. Moved in on August 31st and I just got back from my first class. I really didn't know my roommate well enough to make a judgement on her, and when i came back Saturday night from a night at home she was gone. All her stuff was moved out and i guess she is no more. So as of now i have a room to myself, though if i dont get a roommate assigned, Liz will move in for the spring semester in january.

so. call me. im still close by, i can still do things. I miss everyone a lot, but hopefully once i get my stupid college e-mail address i can keep in touch with the gang via Facebook.

I guess college doesnt suck too much...
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(no subject) [Jul. 29th, 2006|11:25 am]
Aiseki
Well then, I dont use this thing much anyways, but figured I would post this anyways.

As of Sunday morning, I will be leaving for Delaware for 2 weeks. I should get back sometime on the 13th of August, so once again I will be gone for my birthday.

Then I'll be home for a week, and im leaving the morning of the 20th to go to Virginia for a week. Then I'm home 3 days and I leave for college. yay for summer.

call the cell, i should have service. Have a great summer!
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yay for emotions! [Jul. 8th, 2006|10:42 am]
Aiseki
[Current Location |my lair]
[mood |quixoticquixotic]
[music |puppy growls]

Lately it seems as though i am a permanent passenger on an emotional train ride to hell. No matter what seems to be going on in my life, my emotions are the one thing i know is guaranteedto be screwed up in some way. I guess its a bit easier now that i'm accepting the fact that they're screwy but in an odd way its not.

I guess its just the fact that its so frustrating, you know? never being able to know what you are actually feeling, no less explain it to anyone when they ask whats wrong. so for the few of you out there who have asked me that recently, i'm sorry that i probably couldn't convey anything a tad bit close to what i meant, but i guess there is naught to be done about that.

so for now i continue on my personal quest of figuring myself out, and managing to take control of my life and who i am.
which is an awfully big quest if you think about it.
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The Most Bizzare Suicide. [Jul. 6th, 2006|10:11 am]
Aiseki
[mood |peacefulpeaceful]
[music |Enya Playlist]

I found this oddly ironic, and disturbingly entertaining...

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A new addition to the family [May. 7th, 2006|09:33 pm]
Aiseki
So over the weekend my sister and her bf drove up to CT and came back with a new Chocolate Lab puppy. The adorable little puppy still has yet to be named, but that should be coming soon. Here's a few pictures of our handsome boy.

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