||[Sep. 5th, 2010|10:08 am]
Wow Jer you were right, definitely don't need to read all the shitty emo entries I wrote. Though it is funny in a sense to look back and see the person you were, or thought you were, compared to the person you are now. But I believe that can also cause a little self-doubt to creep in, the thought of "could I really change this much? Or am I just ignoring it now and better at hiding/disguising/ etc". |
At any rate, I begin student teaching this coming Wednesday and part of me is scared shitless and I think the only part that isn't is because I don't think about it! I'm actively trying to be a more optimistic person, and more self-confident as well but the thought of being responsible for molding little brains that need extra help can be kind of stressful. I know it's not like I'll fuck them up for life or something if I mess up, and I do get along well with kids so I think it will be fine. It's like ripping off a Band-Aid in a sense, I just need to go in on Wednesday with a smile and get the initial freakout over with quickly.
Another part in the quest for me to be more optimistic is the internet places I visit. I've been frequenting: givesmehope.com, lovegivesmehope.com, sixbillionsecrets.com, kidsgivemehope.blogher.com, itmademyday.com, and makesmethink.com. Rather than the traditional fmlife website, these are more about celebrating good things and the such. So if you're reading this, if anyone does, you should check these out.